June 2012
1 post
the art of being a scientist woman.
disclaimer: before you continue on reading, be aware that you might label this post as ”galau”, “cheesy”, or whatever it is you might personally consider when you read such a honest, rather too-emotionally writing and nothing of importance at all. … but hey, this is my personal blog and so I should just continue with it regardless of what you might think of me! :p
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May 2012
17 posts
1 tag
International 16 Salford
Meaning of Life: “For me personally, life is all about dynamic things. We will encounter different problems, different challenges, different friends, different people, all the differences regardless space and time. So therefore, to live our life is to deal with everything in life as well as adjusting ourselves with all the differences it provide.”
if not because of this gorgeous...
I do have to get mad sometimes. sabar tuh ada batasnya woy. situ kira saya ngelakuin ini buat siapa, hah? buat saya? enggak kan? apa urusannya dan apa untungnya buat saya sih? like the hell I care. saat kamu ngasih saya tanggungjawab atas hal yang sepenuhnya urusan kamu, dan saat kamu malah misuh2 sama saya saat saya dengan sebaik2nya melaksanakan tanggungjawab yang kamu kasih? then why bother...
“Courage is confused with picking up arms and cowardice is confused with laying...”
– Mitch Albom (via quote-book)
the backstage.
I, on the other hand, am waiting for you at the backstage.
I am not to be seen. neither am the centre of any attention.
I am not the one who’d get all the applaud, the fame, nor a prominence.
I am not the one people would address their flowers to, nor am the one people would line up their queues for.
and I am not another actress whom you should put all your attention to.
but I, am...
brunchner.
di perpus, ceritanya lagi puasa. seujujurnya udah laper (6.57 PM GMT+1) tapi berbukanya masih nanti jam 9.07 PM. sementara classmate sedang berusaha membujuk aku untuk bermalam di perpus.
elena: do you wanna stay here tonight?
me: no
me: i'm going at 8
elena: just bring your breakfast-lunch-dinner and eat it here
elena: brunchner
haha! ya. istilah "brunch" alias gabungan breakfast-lunch buat bule gak ada apa2nya dibanding seorang muslim yang tengah berpuasa saat musim semi di negeri antah berantah. we got all meals wrapped in one--brunchner!
evening mind-walkers.
instead of going out for a party or just having a drink at the pub, I spent my evenings having serious, thoughtful conversations or, sometimes, getting completely random ideas and execute it right away. (yes, RIGHT away. details posted later!)
while others dress up and having proper make-up for party, i just use my casual pair of jeans, sneakers, and thick jacket with no sign of any make-up...
reversibility philosophy
somewhere, somebody, this morning. after a lecture about reversibility.
him: this used to be my fundamental thought..
me: (puts on a serious face)
him: i used to think about why should i... live on?
me: (puts on an even more serious face)
him: and somebody asked me why i should live on.
him: of course, that's simply because..
me: (prepares for something highly philosophical)
him: because if i live, i can choose to die
him: but if i die.. i just can't choose to be alive again.
him: so it's not reversible!
me: ..........
another epic-ness of that weird person (which I wouldn't say who or else i'll be kicked out of the safe assignment-marking zone! =p)
soundscape of Piccadilly Gardens, taken this...
April 2012
13 posts
lost in tran(ame)slation.
this afternoon, in Newton Building's corridor.
Elena: that guy Eric is awesome. his matlab code is really really awesome.
Jose: you know, that guy used to do filters. he's an Electrical Engineer, that's why.
me: oh, so it is a "he"?
Elena: (laughs)
Elena: of course it is a "he"!
Elena: the name's ERIC!
me: well.. when we have "Leissa" and "Farina" as guys names??
me: how can I not be sure "Eric" is not a 'she'?
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don't talk to strangers? think twice!
halo, selamat menikmati jam-jam terakhir sebelum kembali menuju hari Senin! :D haha oke ini aku seharusnya lagi ngekstrak data dari software Comsol untuk tugas boundary element method-nya mata kuliah numerical techniques atau lagi nganalisis room modes dari desain listening room tugasnya room acoustics. but do forget those alien stuffs for now (for I know you have no idea of what those are all...
soundscape of Salford Quays, taken yesterday...
soundscape of Peel Park, Salford, Manchester,...
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a note from Gamelan Symposium: Reviving Souls.
well hello again, tumblr! udah lama banget rasanya aku gak nulis tulisan yang bener, tulisan yang gak serba ambigu dan konotatif. hehe. so here I am, sitting right in front of my (broken) white MacBook, sipping a cup of Lemon & Ginger Tea, ngantuk luar biasa tapi belum akan tidur karena belum masuk waktu solat Isya.
I’ve been really, really busy for the past one month! bahkan sekarang...
afterjoy?
there’s always this time, when you’re..
well. there was a joy. a really joyous moment to celebrate, to be cherished, to support, to simply be a part of,
and then that’s it.
you’re happy, that’s obvious, but.. but then a sudden rush of feelings just came, as if filled your lungs with denser air, and suddenly you stopped your breath and closed your eyes.
and you...
“What if the universe betrays you?”
– a question from a dear friend.
and, yeah, as much as I am aware, never in my life had I ever thought about such a thing. hopping into one comfort zone to another and having new, otherworldly adventures are always been my specialty (although it has never been my main objective). I met people along...
“Why do you go away? So that you can come back. So that you can see the place you...”
– Terry Pratchett, A Hat Full of Sky (via girlwithoutwings)
“The desert weed lives on, but the flower of spring blooms and wilts.”
– Khaled Hosseini | The Kite Runner (via blogut)
March 2012
10 posts
Filosofi Phonograph.
(image courtesy of wikipedia)
haha. oke. jadi ceritanya course tutor aku hari senin kemarin dengan bangganya memperlihatkan phonograph tua teramat langka miliknya seharga 300 poundsterling lengkap beserta rekaman silinder lagu-lagunya.
ya, rekaman silinder. nenek dari nenek moyangnya seluruh alat rekam dvd, vcd, cd audio, bahkan kaset magnetik yang bisa difastforward pake pensil.
phonograph...
curhat.
via facebook.
Elena: you know what is my least favorite sound?
Aku: what?
Aku: sound of the pigs in Angry Birds?
Elena: the sound of Matlab when it encounters an error.
Elena: HAHA
Elena: somebody is playing Angry Birds here
dua wanita audio acoustics mabok DSP. yang satu lagi sinting nyempetin main Angry Birds.. yang satu lagi waras ngerjain tugas. tapi si waras bertengger di posisi nomer satu top scorer Angry Birds-nya si sinting.
maka hanya Tuhan lah yang tahu apakah kami berdua sama2 waras.. atau sama2 sinting.
"That's why I want to marry you, my dear."
Denis Thatcher: Margaret, will you marry me?
Margaret Roberts: ...
Denis Thatcher: ... well?
Margaret Roberts: Yes.. yes, but..
Denis Thatcher: What?
Margaret Roberts: I love you so much, but..
Margaret Roberts: I will never be one of these women, Denis, who stay silent and pretty on the arm of her husband. Or remote and alone in the kitchen. Doing washing up, for that matter.
Margaret Roberts: One's life must matter, Denis. Beyond all the cooking and the cleaning, and the children, one's life must mean more than that. I cannot die washing up a teacup.
Margaret Roberts: I mean it.
Margaret Roberts: ... Denis. Say you understand...
Denis Thatcher: That's why I want to marry you, my dear.
And that's how Margaret Roberts became Margaret Thatcher, shortly before becoming the first female Member of Parliament, and before becoming the first and the longest serving female British Prime Minister.
- from "The Iron Lady" (2011)
“There is divine beauty in learning… To learn means to accept the postulate that...”
– Elie Wiesel (via girlwithoutwings)
“… to learn means to accept the postulate that life did not begin at my birth.”
March 7th, 2012
… is one of those days which makes my heart burst with love, happiness, open-mindedness, gratefulness, anything, you name it.
at the end of the day, I realised that..
my way of journey might not be very common like having to try to keep myself on the straight road by socialising only with people of “my kind” or boastingly trying to do clever, creative things for my people and...
February 2012
21 posts
your spring is my winter.
chilling wind is now starting to get mild. the sound of flowing river is no longer loud… for birds are flying and chirping nearby.
leaves are appearing, soon all the beautiful flowers will bloom.
hope and happiness, too, shall now overcome months of sorrow. and so they do.
and so you’re blooming like cherry blossoms, for somebody has finally found and admire your colourful leaves...
I wasn’t looking for one. I didn’t ask for anything. I never hoped for that to stay this way. I never expected anything. I just.. live on like I used to live before. It all just came so naturally,
and somehow end up being.. I don’t know.. painful? happy?
maybe both. I don’t know.
I don’t know..
“Even after all this time,
the Sun never says to the Earth, “You owe...”
– Hafiz.
16022012
a classical music book (for I am studying sound waves—aha :p), packages of Cadburys (for I am more than a Cadbury maniac), a (belated) cute watch (for I can never wake up early)…. and my super messy desk (for I AM a postgrad student! :p).
“… One less year ‘til I can call you a doctor!” —and no, no one is ever going to call me a doctor until I’m...
a flip of a coin in an early spring at the end of...
she walks with her bare foot in the still breezing wind of an early spring. she exchanges glances with no passerby, let alone her mind fleeing freely through the white afternoon sky. she walks along the riverside, perfectly uncertain. yet assuredly determined.
she speaks with the birds, for they care not to judge. she listens to the water, for it tells no paradigm. she dances with the rhythm of...
Even the most ideal concept or the best of an idea would be nothing if you’ve never been there yourself.
Why should people listen to such an inexperienced, when they are already filled with excess knowledge, when they are already at their steady pace themselves?
I guess it is true that sometimes, somebody who thinks he/she knows everything is the one who needs to learn the most.
But,...
